Mistake
It took longer to write my blog because I had to get my thoughts together. We lost the game yesterday. And that was not the bad part … I lost it in the last minutes of the game when the referee called a foul on me that I didn’t agree with. I know – I have known all my life – that when the ref calls something there is nothing you can do about it. But I went over to him and showed him I had the ball, only the ball and that he shouldn’t have called that foul. But like I said I lost it and went over to him, and we bumped in to each other (with other team mates shuffling around us) and I got kicked out of the game. My attempt was just to show him I had the ball, nothing more and he sees it like that too. I went over to him after the game and he said it was no big deal, he wasn’t thinking about it anymore. Thinking back, it was not just the referee, I was frustrated with the way I was playing, and I took it out on him. I have to say I am not proud of this, I am embarrassed because I reacted that way. Everybody who knows me knows I’m not like that. I made a big mistake, I want to apologize to the referee, my coach, my teammates and the staff, and everybody who witnessed it. Because this is not how I play the game I love so much, not how I live my life. But like my wife said – once she calmed down – everybody makes mistakes in their life, but because I am a professional it affects more people and I should have known better and be an example. So this was a bad example. And that’s what I feel most bad about. I’m sorry.